"i notice your eyes are always glued to me" [10 Dec 2009|02:54pm] _damntheman [ music | paramore: "crushcrushcrush" ] Today, did you see the boy that makes you smile the most? yes Is there someone who continuously lets you down? yes Can you honestly say you're okay right now? i'm excellent Next time you will kiss someone? tonight Do you like someone? very much Last time you've felt like crying? i don't know, awhile ago Are your dreams strange? sometimes, i can't remember them as much anymore Are you good at hiding your feelings? if i have to Do you have to check in with your parents before you go someplace? not anymore What movie did you last see? i think the informant Do you know anyone who DOESN'T smoke pot? yes Do you fall for people easily? yes, but very few people Have you ever done something you promised yourself you wouldn't? probably Do you miss anyone right now? my friends from home, my family Are you shy person? not really, sometimes i just dont have anything to say Do you have memories that you want to forget? no, everything that happened made me the person i am today Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships? one person Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? almost everything Does anyone not like you at the moment? i don't think so Are you ticklish? not particularly Is there someone you can trust 100%? yes Do you like to color? if im in the mood What did you do yesterday? last day of class, sleep, exam, last take the mic show, bar, party If you could go back in time and change things, would you? no, for the same reason there arent memories id want to forget Do you like to cuddle? yes Have you kissed anyone today? yes Do you know anyone that drinks? - Uh, yeah. :P Who was the last person to IM you? IM, Perin, probably, facebook chat, Danielle Have you seen someone recently you used to talk to all the time, but don’t anymore? actually, kind of, i ran into my freshman year roommate who didnt like me, and we had a very civil conversation Do your parents love you? of course, and i love them back Have you ever in anyway, been betrayed by someone you trust? haha, yes, many times Do you find it in your heart to forgive? too easily Has someone ever told you that they would be with you forever? someones told me that they would love me and care about me forever, and they didn't mean it, but they were never with me Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you? yes How long was your last phone conversation? about a half hour, i was catching up with anne Are you looking forward to something as of right now? going home to see my family, though kind of in a bittersweet way, i don't want to not see the boy for extended periods of time When was the last time you saw snow? a couple days ago, it all melted [Write it down]

[09 Dec 2009|07:58am] _damntheman every time i see him, i wonder how i could ever have doubted him. [Write it down]

"I'm alive for the first time, and I'm begging you to leave here now." [06 Dec 2009|06:06pm] _damntheman [ music | jack's mannequin: "bruised" ] Here's a reason to start treating myself better. Not that I should do this for you, its something I needed to do anyway, but this is motivation to actually do it. So here's what I'm working on: No more talking shit about myself. Learn to take compliments and believe them. Stop doubting myself and comparing myself to every single person around me Don't take everything so seriously Get out of my own head I need to see myself the way you see me. You always tell me how great I am, but that's the one thing I can't believe. I need to trust you in this like I do in other things. I'm going to try really hard, cause you're worth it. My past is past, and I need to stop letting him dictate how I feel about myself. I don't regret the way that I handled anything, and I understand how it affected me, but up until now, I've just accepted that that's what it did to me, and there was nothing I could do about it. Now I'm going to try making a conscious effort to change that. To recognize that my perception of people's feelings towards me is not always reality. I learned that you can't make someone want you, but now I need to learn, that sometimes people actually do. I can't let the fact that I don't love myself stop someone else from potentially loving me. 2 foolish lines [Write it down]

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